Barely two weeks removed from her suicide attempt, Fantasia Barrino went into great detail about her darkest moments for an upcoming VH1 Behind The Music special.
“I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out,” Barrino, 26, is quoted as saying in the upcoming special as reported by People. “At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with — all of it, all of that [expletive].”
The ex-American Idol winner overdosed on aspirin and sleep medication in her native North Carolina August 10, as her reps said she was overwhelmed by the lawsuit and media attention rising from a relationship she was in with Antwaun Cook, a married man.
In the new interview, Barrino goes in-depth about her actual attempts at self-destruction.
“I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle,” Barrino said. “I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”
Barrino said she tried to kill herself because she “was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family — my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] — I was tired — my head was hurting me. I was over it.”
She also talks about her relationship with Cook, and the misconceptions she had going into it.
“When I met him, he was separated … [he] wasn’t living in his home,” she said. “He didn’t want to be back with his wife — that is what I was told. I remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking to myself], ‘It didn’t work, I’m still here in this hellhole. Still here with all this drama going on.’”
She said her nurse was an inspirational figure in her time of need.
“My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn’t tell me what I wanted to hear,” she said. “She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, ‘You gotta get up, and you’ve gotta get out of here, ’cause you haven’t fulfilled your destiny.’ I realized how people end up in the grave. Because that one moment of just breaking or feeling like ‘I can’t, I can’t go on, it’s too heavy.’
“That was somewhere I don’t ever want to go again,” she said.
The singer’s new album, Back To Me, hits stores Tuesday. The VH1 special airs that night at 9/8c.
The meaning of Dorrough’s sophomore album, Get Big, may take on a whole new connotation, as the Dallas rapper’s cell phone, containing a sex tape, was recently stolen.
Apparently, the phone had a copy of one of Dorrough’s sexual episodes stored on its hard drive and chances are the footage may be released in the near future.
In a statement to the Dallas Observer, Dorrough said, “There have been reports circulating about a ’sex tape’ involving myself, and I want to set the record straight,” he writes. “Unfortunately, the footage does exist, and some of the footage was on my cell phone, which I’ve recently lost. I am only concerned with making sure my family and people close to me aren’t hurt by this, and I want to focus on making music for my fans.”
Get Big is set to hit shelves on September 7 via E1 Music.
Bow Wow and Ice Cube's latest flick Lottery Ticket pulled in over $11 million dollars its first week in theaters, according to box office data.
The movie, which also stars Naturi Naughton and Loretta Devine, landed at #4 in box office tickets sales over the weekend, behind The Expendables (#1) Vampires Suck (#2) and Eat Pray Love (#3).
Bow Wow, who has starred in movies like Roll Bounce, Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift and Hurricane Season, will press on with his acting career.
The rapper, born Shad Gregory Moss, has landed a role in the upcoming Tyler Perry film Madea's Big Happy Family.
"It’s another huge cast. I’m very excited about how my acting career is taking off," Bow Wow told AllHipHop.com. "I am taking on all challenges coming my way. The pressure of carrying a Cube Vision film on my shoulders to working with Tyler Perry; man, skies the limit for me. No telling what’s going to happen next."
On the rapping side, Bow Wow is planning to drop a new installment of his Greenlight Mixtape series featuring Jadakiss, in addition to working on his debut album for Cash Money Records.
Additionally, Bow Wow will be featured as a playable character in EA Sports' highly anticipated NBA 2K11 game featuring Michael Jordan.
"I have a playable character in the game (as Bow Wow)," the rapper/actor revealed to AllHipHop.com. "It’s amazing being a part of one of the largest NBA video game franchises, and to be in it is a blessing."